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[here_inmyhead]

Today in a nutshell: Appointments. Crying. Stress. Headache. Basically a bunch of my problems and insomnia will be solved by taking meds at the right time. Yaaaaaaay. Oh god, my eyes are killing me.

You get the feeling when the holidays just depress you because you're already depressed? Leave the Christmas cheer for the happy people... right now, I just listen to Christmas songs and I just feel sad. :( Not to be a Scrooge, but it's hard to feel festive when you're going through rough times and the choir singing "We Are Santa's Elves" don't give a fuck and couldn't care less. :/ I can see why more people commit suicide in December than any other year. *sigh* (Notice all the more popular/universal Christmas songs like White Christmas and I'll be Home For Christmas are secretly depressive/poignant/wishful thinking? THAT'S WHY. *DUNDUNDUN*) Maybe my Sarah McLachlan Christmas CD will make me feel better, it's that time of year anyway. Nice to have music that doesn't jam the holidays down your throat either. I should watch my Sweeney Todd DVD before the movie comes out. Nothing like celebrating the season with black humor and buckets of gore! XD

Not asking much for Christmas. Don't feel like asking a lot. 'Sides, Tim Burton's Sweeney Todd on Christmas Day is more than good enough gift for me. :o Dad sent me a lappie as a Hanukkah gift, so it should be here in a few more days. Lucky me. :o I need to figure out how to fix my Wi-Fi so I could be sent my Christmas Shaymin... and so I could breed you guys Phiones. CHAOS (the Japanese Manaphy) babies! :o Hey, why not? Special dudes, after all.

I don't think I can muster the energy to come up with anything for Holiday Funfest. Maybe some crappy poetry, but bleeegh. That's not gonna earn me any Starmen keychains. There's already the Pr0ntober entries I owe, but I'm afraid I'm gonna have to take my time with 'em. I don't feel like writing anything smutty right now, no matter how remotely fluffy it is. (Hell, I may have to start over on the Jeff/Tony one. It's not nearly awkward enough as it should be for the first time! :o) Heck, I'm just in this general writing block in general. So blegh. And I need to write something gen but even then, no bunnies on that and no use forcing myself.

Only thing I have energy for is researching cabarets. Who cares if it's got nothing to do with the holidays? :o I can't refuse drawing Tony singing at a night club in Moonside. ("You don't call him enough, do you Jeff?")

Comments

[oshiro-akina.livejournal.com]

*massages*

You're not the only one who feels depressed at this time of year . . . I just hate having all this "Christmas cheer" shoved down my throat. I hate turning on the TV or radio and only hearing Christmas music and commercials promoting their stupid 7am-midnight sales.

I hate feeling as though I'm being forced to be happy because the holidays are here. It just gets me even more depressed.

Sometimes, whenever I hear a Christmas carol on the radio I break down and cry for no reason. I can't explain why; it's just something that happens.

I've been getting mail from Hallmark advertising their cheesy Christmas cards and overpriced ornaments and just looking at it sinks me deeper into my already ugly state of depression.

I ramble too much. *massive apologizing*

*clings* We can get through this . . .

[n64-chick.livejournal.com]

I'm not a fan of the holidays either. I guess the main reason in my case is because my family and I are poor. I mean, how am I supposed to buy presents for people with only $15? And all I'm really asking for is art supplies so I can continue drawing stuff and putting it on DeviantART.

[chaoscheebs.livejournal.com]

Er, well, one of the first scenes in the musical Cabaret is set in a nightclub on New Years Eve. That's close enough for a connection?

Hope you feel better. =\

[the-terrible.livejournal.com]

I hate Christmas and I don't listen to Christmas music at all. This time of year only stresses me out and pretty much any holiday-related stuff I do is either generic or done for laughs.