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[here_inmyhead]

Well well, that app got rejected. My PokéKnowledge must be really getting rusty, huh? Probably the better for it though. There's too much going on now that all the melodrama will seep into my characters anyway. I'll get over it, I know what I did wrong. I just nod and go on and would rather not hear more about the situation. Even if it means thinking my stuff's weepy OOC crap for a while. So yeah, I'd rather not talk about it, unless you really want me depressed longer.

I just hope Usagi makes it. I know she will.

Things... haven't been going well. That I realized today. Insomnia's gotten worse, had to see a doctor for it, had blood drawn, switching around time for taking medications again... Still three papers behind, I have an exam Thursday I haven't really been studying for. Overslept and missed two classes. The only good thing about today was I got a B+ on my Russian Sci-Fi paper--I only got points off for grammar, formatting, and sentence structure and such. I feel behind and an adviser told me I'd have to drop classes before I fail them--I feel such guilt doing that, but knowing how WELL I did past exams in Critical Thinking and the way I am now, things are looking bleak in that subject. I know I have people to see, appointments to attend and calls to make, but I just can't be bothered, I feel so tired.

Good thing I brought my winter coat to the computer lab to cry in so people don't stare at me. Will probably cry to sleep (that is, IF I sleep) at my dorm 'cause I'm a wretch like that. But yeah. Let this all pile until I finally realized it's a problem.

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[swordianmaster.livejournal.com]

I saw the whole thing unfold, myself. I won't take sides here, but I will say one thing.

Minor characters are hard to pin down, unless you really pay attention to the source material. Major characters - such as Ness and Paula in EB fandom - are easy to pin for fans of all levels, but to do someone more minor (say, Tony or the character you apped) requires a more studious eye towards the canon, or else you can get wrapped up in what the shipper in you says.

Looking at your app, I thought one thing - "she writes like a Mewtwo/Joy or Brock/Joy shipper does". Yes, taking on a more minor character means you have more leeway for personality, but at the same time, you have to be sure to distinguish between canon and shipping. It's something I personally fight with every day when I RP Mephiles - am I playing him like he should be played, or am I playing him like a Mephadow shipper would?

There's a careful balance that has to be met there, and I think finding that will further you by leaps and bounds, not just as a writer, but as a person.

[insanepurin.livejournal.com]

True. Because not much is revealed about minor characters, it's easy to fall into certain traps, and sometimes the character will come off as completely someone else or the RPer herself--not the character fleshed out himself/herself.

Which is odd, because I don't ship Mewtwo/Joy or Brock/Joy at all! XDDDD I guess I took a leering to the Joy from Mewtwo Strikes Back because of the mysterious aura surrounding her and wondered how she'd react to Clockwork after all she went through--and got a tad far-fetched and carried away in the process. Whoops. XD But that's still a really good point: am I playing the character or am I just in it for the shipping? Like with Tony: what's he like? We're not asking about Jeff/Tony--we want Tony.

Too true! I'll keep this in mind along the way. :o

[zerenitia.livejournal.com]

Are you taking five classes at all? Maybe you should lessen the load? D: You seem like you need a bit more YOU time.

[insanepurin.livejournal.com]

Three actually, at 9 hours. D: I think I'm spoiled sometimes.

[swordianmaster.livejournal.com]

...How many credits?

I've found the credits a course is worth show a better indication of how much time a class takes than how many hours it runs.

[insanepurin.livejournal.com]

I'm not sure, I'll have to check. But I honestly don't want to drop any of them, I love them all so much. :/

[insanepurin.livejournal.com]

Wait a minute... I messed up.

According to my schedule, I'm registered for 3 classes for 17 hours. Meaning I mixed up the number of credits with the number of hours, so I actually have 9 credits total right now.

[cresselia.livejournal.com]

*hugs* That's what you gotta do, is pick yourself up and try again. Maybe after you wait a while and brush up on your canon and whatnot, you can try apping Joy again. Trust me, I really had to brush up when writing my Tony app, because, as swordianmaster said, minor characters can be very hard to pin down, especially if there's not a lot of canon information to work with. There is a lot of leeway that can be given, but there are still boundaries within the character. Uhm. If that makes sense. D:

Don't let it get you down. ♥ RP's supposed to be fun, it's a game - even if you lose from time to time, you can still have fun with what you've done, y'know? At least you know there's room for improvement, which is more than I can say for other writers/RPers/etc I've seen.

And... idk where I'm going with this. Just trying to say keep your chin up. 9~9 And I hope everything else gets better for you, too. D8 ♥

I look forward to playing with you and Eivii (well, and everyone else too :D;), btw ♥ *A*

[insanepurin.livejournal.com]

Well, one thing came out of it, and that was all the Joy icons I made. XDDD! Albeit, some are crappy by now but someone else could use a bunch for non-RP purposes. But yesh. Minor characters are HARD. oO;;; I guess I'm just used to writing them in fic and fleshing them out that way, and RPing is a different medium. @.@;;

You did absolutely badass on your Tony app. :o I really felt it was him speaking, that you know his character (and all the work you put into that too!), and I applaud you forever and ever for that. It's a gift to have that. :o

And haha, it's true. XD I always get emotional and weepy after rejection, but then I brush my pants, think over things, and hey! I'm okay! And I'm better for it! :o (And gosh, I can't wait! It'll be wonderful fun, and I'm not just talking Jeff/Tony sense either. :3 *ruffles Tony's hair and giggles*)

[sarajayechan.livejournal.com]

*hugs Puri*

[the-terrible.livejournal.com]

*hug*

[eiviiaru.livejournal.com]

Hey. First off, I wanted to apologize for disappearing tonight; my Internet connection died suddenly, and I've only now gotten back online.

As for other stuff -- well, I don't know the situation with the app, so I'll just offer my sympathy for it and everything else. It's really easy to let things pile up; I know it happens to me a lot, particularly with insomnia, which can just destroy your abilty to function. I just want you to know I'm hoping for you and that you get through these coming weeks okay. Take the best care of yourself you can, and if there's anything I can do, let me know.

(Also, thank you for your kind words tonight about the Funfest results. They meant a lot to me.)

[bottlemilk.livejournal.com]

*HUGGLES*

I'm rather worried about your insomnia but if you've been to a doctor, then hopefully something will be sorted for you quickly so at the very least you can be getting proper sleep.

If, say after Christmas, the workload is too much for you, you could consider dropping a subject then. Although I enjoyed Geography I dropped it last year and GOD I felt so much better for it, in the long run I was muchmuch happier and had loads more time to do other things. Don't worry about the rp app for now, you have other things to worry about and you can ALWAYS try again later. <3 So don't worry.

Really well done for your Russian Sci-Fi paper, too! <333 Sounds like a quirky kinda topic XD But really honeypie, focus on the positives, however few there may seem. A little slither of sunshine is better than none at all, right? *shot for being corny D:* (And just think! Christmas soon! you'll be finishing for a winter holiday!)

[heysonic.livejournal.com]

I don't know what to say except...

*hugs*

Many people are depressed around the holidays, winter more generally...have you tried getting more sunlight? I've heard that that heeeeeeelps. D':

It tends to get better though. And there is Shaymins and bebeh Legendaries and Sweeney Todd!