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[here_inmyhead]

I should just die.

I'm stating this as pure fact.

I'm no good for anything anymore. Nothing works. Nothing can redeem me. Never.

(And apparently, it looks like too much Advil will give you stomach bleeding if it fails killing me off for good)

Comments

[chromegadget.livejournal.com]

I don't think I've ever seen you say that before.

...*just hugs*

[runawayblue.livejournal.com]

W-What? Puri, don't say things like that! Please!

You know I'm always here if you need to talk. *hug*

"There will always be a door to light."

[chaoscheebs.livejournal.com]

*hug* It may not feel like it now, but something will work eventually. The path's not easy and it's not fun, but it can be overcome. There is always a way. Always.

[yamikaosu.livejournal.com]

No.

Just...no.

If I were there right now, I would hug onto you and not even think about letting go. Because of just how untrue that is.

Internet hugs will have to do, I guess. *hugs* But I implore you, please don't think that way.

[pimmy.livejournal.com]

Purii! Please don't be so sad! It's horrible that you should have to worry so much! Everyone loves you, you're not annoying or whiney or any of those things! Like they said up there, theres always a way. It's never a good thing to give up, ever ever ever!

[iceclimbers87.livejournal.com]

YOUR CRAZY. You should not die. You have lots of friends who love you. Me included. *HUUUUG* Don't say things like that. EVER.

[carriepika.livejournal.com]

I know I shouldn't be asking this but I'm frightened enough for forgo politeness.

Do you have her phone number? I know you're close and I just.. I'm -really- scared. If you don't want to give it, is there any chance you could like.. phone her and check up on her? She's not anywhere -I- can find...

[iceclimbers87.livejournal.com]

I don't sorry D: I wish I did right now though.

[ceasefire.livejournal.com]

;___________; *HUGS* I'm here if you need to talk.

[sullmaster.livejournal.com]

Puri...what's going on? How come you're always so hard on yourself? I really don't understand, especially someone like you who is well liked by almost everyone on LJ. I don't know what's up with you personally at home but I hope and pray that everything's alright. At least I hope you know this much, that you DO make a difference to at least one person in your life. That's the real truth and I'm sure everyone else on here would say the same. You're too good of a person to beat yourself up like this and you have so much ahead of you right now in your life. Speaking for myself, I always smile at some of the entries you post online. It's a small thing but it means so much at the same time. Just that little bit can really touch someone and say "Wow, this person's so cool. No wonder she's well-liked on here." I really mean that, from the first post I saw you make on here.

I'll try to stop rambling on, but my point Puri is you really do make a difference even though it can't be seen. If you do need any help just let me know ok? Chin up Puri, the last thing I ever want to hear is you getting hurt :(

[luminous-manic.livejournal.com]

I liek it better when you are happy, don't be this way, it bums me out... :(

[alexi-serenitia.livejournal.com]

Please... don't talk like that. You're a good person, Puri. I'd be horrified if anything ever happened to you.

[n64-chick.livejournal.com]

*is so shocked the words won't come*

[carriepika.livejournal.com]

Phone number. NOW, Puri.

Does anybody here have it? I'm not going to play around with crap like this...

I swear to god, Puri, if you hurt yourself, I will personally drive to Corpus Christi and smack you.

[lvrgirl91.livejournal.com]

I'm really sorry I don't know you better and was so lost for words for so long before I finally said something, but I'd really be devestated to hear you did something terrible to yourself. I know we don't eve KNOW each other well, but I really like you and would miss you. And it's terrible to go through, but things HAVE to look up, even for a bit, sometime.

Point is, I really hope you're okay. -hugs tightly-

[toysthatbreak.livejournal.com]

Puri... this isn't he answer. I know you're hurting but... this kinda stuff only makes things worse, not better. Believe me on this one... Please, hang in there.

[bottlemilk.livejournal.com]

What? Puri? Don't say things like that! They're not true! Not true at all! And if I could hug and squeeze you so tightly right now and tell you that, in a heartbeat, I would!

Just please, please, don't ever hurt yourself.

[nejlbana.livejournal.com]

Oh god... x.x

Puri, please don't do it. I hope you didn't, and like the others said, there's always light on the other side, you just have to keep pushing.


I really don't want to lose another person to suicide. It no cause of good, defiently. Everyone is hurt by it.


I really hope you haven't done it... Oh god. x.x; *hugs*

[private-enemy.livejournal.com]

Hey...I know I’m not on your friend’s list and I’m kind of barging in here, but I stop by your lj and read it sometimes, plus we know each other from sonicstuff (it’s a shame you left, I was used to seeing you around there). I may be out of line, and I apologize if that’s the case, but I just saw this entry and it concerned me a lot. I’ve noticed you’ve seemed to’ve been having a lot of personal problems lately, but I didn’t think it was my place to say anything. I really hope you haven’t done anything to hurt yourself. From what I’ve seen of you, you seem like a really cool person/Sonic fan. I’m just one of the many other people who are concerned about you. Again, I apologize if this is out of line, I just hope you’re ok is all.

[dr-sipp.livejournal.com]

Listen, there is always a light at the end of the tunnel. Always. Things may seem bad now, but they never will be. And there are a lot of people who care about you, posting in this entry.

And it won't fix anything, doing this. You're not a bad person, you are a good and interesting person with some bad traits, yes, like everyone, but you can work on them, improve, and move forward. You are very young and have your whole life ahead of you, a life full of opportunities, good things and bad things, like all lives.

So. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. I'm confident enough in you to know that you aren't doing this for attention - and I'm worried, nonetheless.

Don't. <3

[vontriz.livejournal.com]

You have a lot of people worrying about you and care about you, who do not want anything bad to happen to you. Remember that if you do do the unthinkable, they will be the ones left behind hurting. Please don't do anything, what may seem awful now can be overcome in time and you have lots of people willing to support you. Please post on your journal if you are ok, many people are very worried.

[dustindemon.livejournal.com]

Dun say thing like that Puri D% Plenty of peoples loves yew and you should not die n stuff!

[indilee.livejournal.com]

Holy shit, Purin...

I know we're not insanely close either but you've always been a bright and cheerful personality to know in the Sonic realm online and everything - I don't know what's been bothering you - mainly just stress and other things - but I really hope you haven't done anything to yourself. As others have already said - suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. You can always get better with help.

I hope you're alright.

[naoe-riki.livejournal.com]

That's somewhat like me. I just repeat many times a day to myself.. "Baka..", "Aho"..

I suppose that's normal - to be unsatisfied with oneself. Though yes, that is annoying.

And I guess I know how you feel? Hm.. Sometimes I feel physical pain which makes me wish to die. No, not die.. To do anything to have it stop. Now that's the worst thing there is. (if you wonder how I get that pain - it's when I have way too much to drink.. Seldom but happens)

[naoe-riki.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry, I didn't understand your post fully because of my not-too-well English, that is - that last part.

I want to say that I just wish everything was fine and you were okay. I want you not to feel pain. I hope everything will be alright. Please stay. And sorry again.

[staff-of-truth.livejournal.com]

NO! Purin, don't say that... ;___; I mean, you are a totally awesome person.

Hey, um, I'm sorry I haven't AIMed you in such a long time. Please, if you need me, just IM me... I don't want you to feel bad, 'kay?

Status update

[theboxization.livejournal.com]

To everyone that's worried about my sister, thank you from the bottom of my heart for really making an effort to find out how she is. It's very good to know she has people here who truly care about her.

To let you all know, she was intercepted before she could attempt suicide, and has been admitted to a hospital where she will be cared for. Her family is doing everything we can to help her through this.

If you would like to give her a phone call, I'm not sure what the policy is at the hospital, but calls from her friends would mean the world to her, and would mean a lot to us, her family, too. Please email me at omgitsyuusuke at yahoo dot com, and I can give you my dad's cell number so he can screen you guys. He'll have the information for getting in touch with her.

Again, thank you so much, and please keep being there for my little sister. Family only has so much power.

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[luminous-manic.livejournal.com]

:( I hope everything goes well...

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[carriepika.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much for letting us know! I've been just beside myself trying to figure out how I could contact someone.

I will definately be dropping you an email. I hope your Dad doesn't mind feilding phone calls from internet friends. But Puri has gotten to be very dear to an awful lot of us.

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[iceclimbers87.livejournal.com]

=( I hope everything goes okay as well. If you can...let her know Phil says hi? thanks.

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[indilee.livejournal.com]

Arr, I wish my cell would have enough minutes to call and give her a luffle or two. :( Thanks for the update though! I'm glad she'll be cared for. Good luck and well wishes for your family too.

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[theboxization.livejournal.com]

Also, I'll be leaving for a trip shortly and won't return until Sunday - I'll reply to any emails I don't get to then.

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[sullmaster.livejournal.com]

Well I've sent an email but if I'm not allowed then please send her my best wishes ok? Good luck to all of you guys

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[vontriz.livejournal.com]

That's a relief. Thank you for letting us know.

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[alexi-serenitia.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much for the update. Words can't express how worried I was for her, nor can they express how relieved I am to hear that she's all right.

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[private-enemy.livejournal.com]

Echoing other's sentiments, I'm relieved to hear she's ok, and I thank you for the update.

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[chromegadget.livejournal.com]

Thank you for letting us know. I'm glad she's okay.

[weaseldog-ltg09.livejournal.com]

Alright, listen here, Puri.

I know we don't talk very often, and it has nothing to do with our friendship itself, but that friendship is still there nonetheless. It means something to me, so I would hope it means something to you, too.

So if it truly is "pure fact" that you should just die, then maybe I should just die, too. Perhaps I'm not good for anything anymore, and I guess it's possible that I am also past redemption.

Why is this, you ask? Because from my standpoint, I just fail to see anything that makes you less deserving of praise than me (or most people I know of, for that matter). You've many talents and opportunities that I only wish I could have, and I've seen you put them to better use than I certainly would be able to. I've always admired you for your excitement towards the things you enjoy and also your amazing merit for being a good friend. You're one of the most interesting people on my LJ Friends List.

Puri, I truly hope that you'll recieve this and respond -- I'll have some things to tell you when you return.

~Rafael

[replica.livejournal.com]

I know you're in the hospital now, and I'm sorry I didn't see this entry until now, but for when you get back, lots and lots and lots of *hugs*

I hope that you will be able to feel better soon, and I'm so sorry you have to go through this ;_; I'll be thinking of you and rooting for you!

Life can be overwhelming and sometimes it just doesn't seem worth it, but there will be a lot of people who will miss you if you are gone D: I for one would miss you, even if we only know each other casually through LJ.

So please take care of yourself. I send you lots of love <3