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[here_inmyhead]

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...IneedneedneedneedneedNEEEEEEEDthis keychain. T-T I knew that something like this was gonna exist after the Sonic, Tails, and Knuckles ones...



And to make way for a completely different mood, I feel like shit right now. Like... I dunno. Well, one thing that's bugging is... well, it'll take forever to explain. And I'll get a buncha stares and such. So, in a nutshell...

...Am I trying too hard to grow up? It feels like a friggin' torment I'm not 18 years old yet--still have quite a bit of months to go. Yet, I don't want to feel like I've been robbed, either... and people tell me being old isn't as great as it sounds. Yet, people take you more seriously when you're an adult over a wangsting teenager.

Do I feel like the only 17-year-old who feels, well... let's just say, in Spanish today. I recited a tongue-twister really quickly--twice, for the teacher. I was never good at tongue-twisters unless I was screwing up, and well... that was an accomplishment for me, and I was surprised myself. So, the teacher played an old folk song for us, a traditional Spanish song to sing before the birthday person woke up for the morning. We were asked to sing back the song, following the lyrics written on the sheet. And like... was I the only one who actually sang for the song? Go figure, I know I'm in Choir, but even I wouldn't be that enthusiastic about such things--but seriously. The students around me--usually you get dull "noooo, I dunwanna do this" kinda singing and whatnot, but it's like... yeah. The kids aren't even trying. You couldn't even hear them. Hell, they even just sat around class and talked and giggled.

Wow, so much for me. I'm the only one who actually follows the assignment. So what if you can't sing? I would've done it anyway. Which lead me to wonder, 'cause I was suddenly reminded of infamous QoR fic Thrill of Defeat: where oh, it was more important and wonderful for Jessie to be James's Twu Wuv than grow up to be a nurse and do wonderful things and, you know... be good at something useful. I wanted to blurt this out loud for all the brats to hear: "The only thing you talentless hacks can do is get laid! And give blowjobs!"

Of course, that would result in the class laughing and making fun of me, (And going "OOOOOOH! REFERAAAAALLL" and stuff like that) and I'd especially be in trouble with the teacher wether or not I had the guts to say the striked comment, although I know for certain I'm not... crass like that. Yeah. Ye gods, my language. I think I'll scare people I care about like this. See what I mean about "growing up too fast"?

I know I'm not clear enough... but at least NIN keeps me sane.

Comments

[pimmy.livejournal.com]

I feel the same way, i really envy the maturity that can come with being older... being a teen really isnt all so fun.

Heheh, atleast my spanish teacher would MAKE everyone sing really loud before we could stop XD;

[insanepurin.livejournal.com]

Nobody wants to be a teenager. XD People either want to be kids or adults--either way, they never want to be teenagers. XDDD

Tough cookie, your Spanish teacher. 8)

[chicobo329.livejournal.com]

I almost inverse, I don't -want- to grow up. Now this isn't the typical Peter*Pan way, it's simply that growing old is something I fear the most. I find my age right now and my level of maturity is at its best and getting any older and I'll start to feel less like myself and more...like a shell of myself, a shadow of something I used to be.

Regarding Spanish, I'm actually 1/4 Spanish. My mom's father was an immigrant from Spain. I'm mostly Italian though, especially my dad's side n.n I had a really fun Spanish teacher, Ms. Davis n.n She was cool with everything and usually made the most out of the usual Spanish curriculum n.n

Most kids I've seen from Spanish classes hate the class because they figure they won't be needing to speak the language for the rest of their lives. This is true in a country that insists everything be English for the most part and ignorant to other cultures (which is ironic since the US is basically a mish-mash of many different cultures in the first place). But if you're in a place with a heavy Latino populace, such as your native Texas and California, then it's really necessary. Besides, Latinos are the largest 'minority' in the United States and that number is expected to grow in the future. If anything, I'd insist the US adopt Spanish as an official secondary language.

[insanepurin.livejournal.com]

I almost inverse, I don't -want- to grow up. Now this isn't the typical Peter*Pan way, it's simply that growing old is something I fear the most. I find my age right now and my level of maturity is at its best and getting any older and I'll start to feel less like myself and more...like a shell of myself, a shadow of something I used to be.

This is what does scare me about growing up--which is more interesting to discuss on your gravestone? A lifetime of sorting papers in the office or playing video games? I've sometimes worried I was becoming duller and duller by the day--I was playing lesser games than I used to be, and found so much of what I used to love, Animé/Manga and such, increasingly sub-par as of late... is it 'cause I'm getting picky, or that 2005 has been a really sucky year for anything productive and decent?

Exactly--I hear a lot of people speaking Spanish around me here in Corpus Christi. And even if I plan on moving when I head for college, I'm gonna need it. And it's kinda sad I'm working harder and speaking the language better than some of the kids in my class, which were born in a Hispanic family who speaks the language.

[sarajayechan.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[insanepurin.livejournal.com]

The woods are lovely, dark and deep,
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep.

:)

[carriepika.livejournal.com]

*stareeeeeeeeeeeeeeeees at the keychain before squeeing madly and racing off to buy herself one*

I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR ONE OF THOSE! ;0; ;0; ;0;

Now my Knuckles doesn't have to be lonely anymore! ^0^ <3<3<3<3<3<3 *shot* <3

[insanepurin.livejournal.com]

I have all three: Sonic, Knux, and Tails, attached to my dying, aging purple backpack. XD They're the life of that thing, and with Shadow coming along, it'll make it all the more interesting as I clip Sonic and Shadow together on their own zipper, and look later to find two mauled keychains in their place. XDD

[deryck.livejournal.com]

Jam & Spoon feat. Plavka - Right In The Night (Fall In Love With Music) 2002 (Jayito Mix). This song came to mind when I read your thoughts on adulthood. My gift to you.

btw, I'm also the only one in my Spanish class who sings the songs (and enjoys it!). You're not alone. Cielito Lindo!

[insanepurin.livejournal.com]

Awww...! T-T That's staying on my Winamp list forever. XDD

Gracias! Me gusta cantar! Ahh, I'm still lame at Spanish. XD I should make another Mp3 post in my journal soon: I have pretty Spanish song I wanna share. ;D

[deryck.livejournal.com]

:D Glad you liked it.

I notice the poem you mentioned up there. I hate poetry, but there's something haunting about Stopping By Woods On A Snowy Evening. I like visual things and that poem's as visual as it gets.